Objectification or Celebration....

2009

As the year slowly pans out. I'm not sure of what to make of it. Its been a mixed bag of events: Obama being elected, 9 weddings I've attended, Redundancy and Michael Jackson's passing.

Quick word play:

Obama: Lifted my spirit, made me proud
9 Weddings: They make sense and i need a partner
Redundancy! I have tasted this first hand.. bitter pill beyond your control
Michael Jackson's passing: Emptiness, magic has left the building!!

So do i make a new years resolution or more? Or should I keep striving for world dominance? They say people don't plan to fail but rather fail to plan. So i guess the new years resolution thing now sheds off the cheese and holds water.

So plan 1: Do more of what i love
Plan 2: Let the world know that Raphael de Souza is single and available to......?(ill come back to that)
Plan 3: family......i cant say that lightly.. FAMILY!!!
Plan 4: Ambition,hard work, Career move.
Plan 5: Masters Degree in Digital Marketing or MBA
Plan 6: Stack up money.. makes the world go round.
PLan 7: Paint
Plan 8: Write.. Write.. Write
Plan 9: Get my 6 pack back
Plan 10: Achieve what is listed

Ok so im good to go.. but i notice that i have not included my Jaguar XKR as a plan.. but somehow i feel that fulfilling the above mentioned will get me the XKR as a matter of course.

Good night and God bless

TO BUILD A GREAT WALL!!

You must start with the first brick... then the other.... then.. the one after that... and so on...

DEFRAGMENT

IT MADE SENSE TO HIM BUT IT WAS NOT EASY TO GET THE MESSAGE ACROSS. SO HE PAUSED FOR A FEW MINUTES AND BROKE DOWN HIS MESSAGE

"I fully appreciate and sympathize that your intentions are good.
But i have no choice but to react when your actions hurt me.
These feelings tend to happen independently of each other.
Such is the reality and i ask that you understand me and do your part."

.....

maybe

The stars lights married her skin and lit them to show me the other side of her beauty
The sun’s rays showed me her perfect imperfections her true form her reality
I was aroused by the shape of her lips and infected by what came out of them
She spoke with such clarity and sincerity a given assumption that tapped into my inner self
As the words came out I heard her tone and listened to her message
Breaking down every facet of information I could process, I noticed her lips parting
And thought of their softness and sweetness, I was with her but I was far away
Taking her on a journey beyond this world, asking her to share my soul
I urged my aura to be beautiful again, like a majestic peacock showing its impressive colors
I wanted to dazzle her and make her smile and feel secure and endure challenges with me.
I smiled and she smiled back and at that moment we shared a story only open to us
We shared a dimension meant for us, a moment of magic fated by the universe’s need to optimize its creations.
When she laughed I panicked because it was perfect, too perfect too soon.
She held my hand as if to bring me back, she was real, the moment was real.
I deserve her and I will serve her.

The Rose:- The key?

Old Progession

Thinking of Adia

The worlds events rage on like a storm and im on a ship that guides me through it...everytime i look at why i have survived i see the sails and i hear your voice... I see the rudders and i see your ambition and commitment.. i see the hull and i reflect on your sound and continuing legacy...i see the main mast and i see your heart.. you keep me alive and strong mom. (Raphael de Souza-12:08 pm August 14th-thinking about my amazing mother Adia" ...sent as random text...

personification

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What it takes....

A great man starts a life by understanding himself and his environment....he is faced with choices and quickly understands responsibility and accountability based on those choices....he accepts his path and strives to conquer his fears and challenges.. picking himself up at every fall and defining his success only by his progression and not the illusion of an end...during his journey he acquires alot..... wit, strength, wealth and all that comes with it including numerous friends.. popularity and beautiful women at his whim... the one missing piece requires his inner self his soul. That which requires a purity and longevity that can be appropriated to an anointed matrimony...therefore he needs to be humbled, he needs to place himself last he needs to show sacrifice and be prepared to suffer for his true love.....

"Les Fermiers" (The Farmers)

The tranquil setting of the country side allowed for reflection.

The pensive looks gave an air of wisdom.

When Bob realised that the loud bang he heard last night was due to the thermostat being left on full all night.

Half the farm was blown away and the animals ..some charred and some wandering free.

He scratched his chin as he looked on and said "All my years of farming and ive never thought that id be so stupid to cause so much chaos because of bloody new machinery!"

Time, Instance, Realisation and Existence

My earliest memory is a dark hole.

Subtly lit, with love and warmth preserving my soul.

Muted by the inability of coherent expression.

I battled to live with this inevitable precession.

Curious and hungry I looked on and waited

Not knowing what would come next by my choice or what would be fated.

A well watered child, I grew to learn of consequence

I found that with some of my deeds id grow in confidence.

This lead to my curiosity and a hunger for opportunities to seize

Some good, some bad some that fueled my current insecurities.

It seemed like forever, this life so convenient with me in the center.

But a linear curse of moving instances changed the rules of the game id enter.

As the only constant its reality is without fail nor changing pace.

Illusive and without a benchmark from which you’d start your race.

I bartered with the soil and reaped from its fruit.

I learnt to exploit the nectar of its roots.

I battled alongside the wind that beat the rocky shores.

One of many battles and one too many wars.

I walked the suns surface with calluses to prove.

My outer shell would harden and develop its signature grooves.

So now my reward ?? I’d ask the universe.

“In the positives around you your whole self you must immerse”

I looked on confused and regressed to being just a boy.

“Close your eyes” shed say “and tell me what fills your heart with joy”

I did as she asked and eventually understood what she meant.

Reflected on my journey and how the changing instances where spent.

Alas the lesson was clear, what where the next steps and how

All pointed to the notion of the “fierce urgency of now”.

To identify and tackle all what to do where and when

I swear to you that today shall never come again.

Think back to all those wonders and marvels missed

Simply for one reason you chose nothing more than to exist

So now take the reign do more, not less, let go and give.

Go beyond existing today look ahead and live.

Raphael de Souza

This is how i like my women!!

Regal ,so much so that she is beffiting of royalty
To look in her dew covered eyes id have a true sense of her loyalty
Her lips, as succulent as the freshest and ripest fruits
With a perfectly toned voice that rival the sounds of heavens flutes
Her body, a perfect sculputure only to be touched by yours truly
A prescence, so soveriegn that even the blind will see
My queen, my friend, my partner for life
Her challenges are mine her pain and her strife
She will always have my best interests at heart
The first to build again when things fall apart
She takes pride in her man as I do in her
An unexplainable bond that none can deter
Her pert buttocks shaped to seductive excellence
She knows how to handle infectious and lustful compliments
The smell of her hair and skin sweet enough to inspire
And drive me on to set our standards higher
Although i seem fussy ill never stop willing.
This is simply just the way i like my women.

Raphael de Souza